(1) Employers Who Don’t Give Me a Job—A Partial List:
One obvious advantage that employers in Pune have in remembering Yeshwantrao Chavan is that what the latter had said once: “Look in even a minor bylane of Pune, and you would find world-class intellectuals by dozens.” Chavan’s comment did carry a bit of a humourously oblique reference to how Pune people view themselves, but it also did carry an honest appraisal and more: an actual admiration that Chavan did feel about intellectuals; an admiration which was so authentic that it almost looks romantic in comparison to what today’s politicians display towards intellectuals. Indeed, if anything, there is an inversion of sorts: If you are intellectual from Pune, you have to be so nondistinct that you need not be taken seriously in any sense.
But then, politicians are not alone. Evidently, editors of Pune newspapers, and also employers in Pune, including educationists, derive their views about employability of a man on more or less exactly the same lines. If you are a world-class engineer, you would know how to survive taking in wind alone—that is their working view of the merits of a case. Consider the potential employers who evidently have taken such a view (and the list is in random order):
— Padmashree Maharashtrabhushan Mr. Vijay Bhatkar. (No call for interview at I^2IT despite my being from the first batch of C-DAC’s flagship educational product: DAC)
— UGC Committee Member Ms. Vidya Yerawadekar. (No acknowledgement of application, so that nothing further can at all arise.)
— Potential Lokasabha Candidate for Congress (I), Vishwajit Kadam. (Promise of a job made in person to me verbally. Broken without any letter, call, or explanation. Perhaps KD Jadhav’s comment that “anybody who is “inconvenient” to Balasaheb gets thrown out of Bharati Vidyapeeth” was telling; was it, Jadhav?)
— PTC’s Blue-Eyed Boy Ashutosh Parasnis. (Yes, he probably made more than Rs. 50 lakhs the last time I wrote about him. Also his communist assistant in HR, Shejwalkar’s student Taposh.)
— Shejwalkar’s Blue-Eyed Boy Mr. Deepak Shikarpur. (No acknowledgement of the emails sent and no phone calls returned including the message left at his home, with his son. (No, I wasn’t being more pushy than needs be the case.))
— Ratan Tata’s Blue-Eyed IIT Boys at the Computational Research Laboratories. (No acknowledgement of the job application made in response to their Web-based advertisement. If they are made of the soil they are, probably, they will use their influence to publicly wonder aloud why one of the ministries managed by Sharad Pawar isn’t buying their computer. Right, ex-IIT Bombay professors and students?)
— IIT Bombay’s SINE’s Blue-Eyed Boys at Zeus Numerix. (More details given on more than one occasion on my blog and elsewhere… I wonder if Irshad Khaan was under pressure from Taliban to dismiss me. What do you say Irshaad? Do you have either the guts or the arguments to face my question? Note, either or both will do. … BTW, they find the same roof as provided by Padmashree Maharashtrabhushan Mr. Vijay Bhatkar, Warkari.)
— I will revise and expand this list as it strikes me… If the employers aren’t bound by any sense of shame as to who is to employed and who not, why should I be bound by any such a thing as keeping a timetable of convenience to them concerning when and how I update the list and who all do I include? As I said, “hamaam mein sab ke sab hain nange”…
(2) Some Topical Notings:
M J Akbar’s column in today’s ToI made for a greatly interesting reading. Also similarly interesting have been the many recent writings on the new “American” President at CapMag.com, though I don’t always find the time to catch it all (no matter how much I may like to do so).
Anyway, returning to Akbar’s piece, one was struck at the remarkable similarities between the views of Taliban held by Obama, the occupants of seats of power in Pakistan, and, far more interesting to me, Californian businessmen. Also, American “scientists” managing the order in which articles get published at arxiv.org, and the “scientist” reporting about them at the TechnologyReview.com’s arxiv-related blog. This last B+ (it’s a regular expression) can especially be singled out. He “digs” at me shamelessly but doesn’t want to give me even this of a credit that it is me who he digs.
I mean, if you work in the IT industry, esp. in California (or, increasinly, work in anything to do with the Americans managed scientific establishment) you will always get subjected to power-maneouvers at least indirectly cajoling you to shun all forms of extremism (bad, as well as good), as well as to shun any form of judgment (a considered judgement i.e. an act of deliberation, or a blind emotionalism) on any form of extremism. This goes on all the time…
…. You can’t judge anything … None is too better than anyone else … You are not better than us (and if you try to show that you are, here’re our Internet warriors and/or psychics to bring you “in line”) … I don’t understand what you are saying …
It all goes on all the time, full-steam, in USA, esp. in California, and in every business dependent on California… It suits perfectly the judgment-avoiding spineless pseudo intellectuals from India too—whether working here in Pune in IT sector or in Washington state under Bill Gates, or in California…
(It’s no accident that soon after I began exposing the Hindu Brahmin connection of TiE.org, their Pune chapter awoke from slumber and organized an event involving an actually innocent guy, Raja Vaidya. …. Kanwal, don’t try to fool me. You might be a BTech from IIT Bombay and I might not have passed JEE. Yet, by now, I know, to paraphrase a recent Hindi film song, that “XXXX QM nahin kar saktaa saalaa,” where, Kanwal, do feel free to insert your own name in place of XXXX, too (LOL!) )
Returning to nonjdugment as the principle guiding all human action—the present-day hallmark of Californians—consider its practical outfall…
Consider the fraction of revenue of Indian IT industry directly or indirectly dependent on such whims (as of, e.g., of men supplied with Kanwal’s money, or the whims expressly issuing forth off Barbara Boxer’s consciousness) and you can plainly see why there cannot be an appreciation of Akbar’s writings from Pune simply because it has not been laced with the BJP bromides… Also, why I cannot get a job in s/w development for CAE field in Pune.
Do you have any other ideas on the matter Rajiv Gandhi SangaNak Sarathis Shikarpur, Barhate (whose “social” events are reportedly attended by only his board of directors!), or Padmashree Maharashtrabhushan (Warkari) BI hahatkar?
(3) Something about Psychic Attacks on Me:
I have been psychically attacked since at least July of 1998—the time when I was working in the San Francisco Bay Area. It continues, on a DAILY BASIS, till date.
The spectrum of trouble currently in force includes: bad dreams, inducement of a “zing” like physically felt sound and feel (which, I have been careful enough to isolate, is not of direct physiological origin such as high BP, aspirin-induced or otherwise ringing voice in ears, etc.), pain in the three or four typical points, etc. (The “zing” or “ssssak” like thing is, to an extent, associated with visits to my blogs. I emphasize the word: “to an extent.” But first continue reading in a general way about it all… ) The “zing-thing” mostly occurs just before waking, but is noticeable at other times of the night, and recently, even at daytime. [The only morning in the recent months on which the “zing-thing” did not occur and thus I could have a peaceful sleep was the night following the day when I had publicly mentioned on this very blog how my grand-father and a few ancestors knew the Pawar family. That night, all “zings” were somewhat less virulent or mild, and they occurred up to around 11:00 PM. Later on, they had abruptly stopped so that I had a nice sleep all through up to waking up the next morning.]
After carefully applying Mill’s method (of induction), I have distilled the essential fact that these attacks originate from Americans, but not from Russians, Pakistanis, or for that matter, even Indians, though let me hasten to add that such things could easily have been outsourced to any of these… I mean, the man actually doing the attack could very easily be an Indian citizen or come from any other country. But the nerve center—the direction, the *thought*—it originates in the USA.
Now, it could very well also be the case that such an American origin actually can be traced back to China or Pakistan’s power-centers. Possible. Namely, that it’s only a contract PR agency based in Washington DC that does this with Islamabad or Beijing-based clients, ultimately. Possible.
But what I mean to say is that my analysis thus far isn’t accurate enough to point this out necessarily. (No matter how inconvenient it is to the analysts on the payroll of DoD of Government of India, or to the children of ex defence personnel now settled in USA, or others of their ilk.)
I mean to say, I have informally, but very very carefully, monitored my own acute physical pains, on a daily basis, for more than the decade since June/July of 1998. (The pains are sometimes extremely acute—acute enough that my mother, when she too receives such pains, is actually found crying for hours, even though I, for some unknown reasons, do not find myself crying as such, as if it were not biologically possible, even if my own pain too is acute enough when it occurs.) I have monitored my pain through the ups and downs of Bill Clinton’s high-profile Monikagate, Kargil war, the Internet bubble bust, the election controversy over counting of votes and George W. Bush’s becoming of the President, my returning to India (in Aug. 2001), the 9/11, the aftermath of 9/11, my physical beating in Pune (by unidentified Muslim youth), the Parliament attacks, the American wars against Afghanistan and Iraq, BJP’s decision to deploy Indian troops at Indo-Pak border for years, my visits to ToI Pune office asking why they cover my personal life so incessantly, the removal of the BJP government, the communist’s power-sharing in India, the movement to and the signing off of the nuclear deal, Musharraf’s removal, the election of Barack Obama, the kicking out of the communists, and the announcement of the current Loksabha…
So, the span of my careful monitoring has encompassed: the power-switch from the Democrats to the Republicans and back; the initial stage of BJP’s power-grab through their rise and fall; an Indo-Pak War; two major wars of the United States; a power-switch in the UK and a Pakistan; apart from of course, assasinations, coups, etc. etc. etc. Even a streak of largely undeserved Oscars “won” by the Bollywood.
All through such times, I have experienced highs and lows in the psychic attacks that I suffered. But, without any major relief. The first noticeable relief in my daily psychic attacks began in the initial stages of the nuclear deal; the most acute of my pains still do occur whenever America considers any major or minor decision w.r.t. Islamabad and/or Delhi. (There have been times when I have predicted to my family that though it is not as yet reported in the media, someone from the USA Department of State must be visiting New Delhi and/or Islamabad today, with the meeting actually going on in the afternoon, simply because that was the time when I was feeling the most acute pain… Every time, the correlation has come out right.)
There have been differences, though. Prior to nuclear deal, whenever the Ayn Rand Institute published anything, I would scream in pain here in Pune. Today, exactly opposite happens. I am experiencing a basic level of pain which is helped eased whenever some Objectivist publishes something at AynRand.org or CapMag.com or so.
Similar correlations I have experienced with respect to blogging activities elsewhere too (to a minor extent, also at iMechanica—my pain would depend on whether someone was *apparently* criticizing me or not.)
Naturally, I do *not* charge my fellow iMechanicians with any conspiracy against me. None. I have chosen to bear my pain through the years because, right from the beginning, the pain also was accompanied by subtle messages, all to the effect that I give up Ayn Rand’s Objectivism as my philosophy, and, given the fact that Objectivism is politically still a non-entity, it all made me even more curious about the *origins* of all these attacks—in whose consciousness did they originate specifically in my case (and even more strongly to support Ayn Rand, up to a level that I doubt she herself could have managed it on her own were to she be alive today). At other times, the messages were to the effect that I should not continue with the Reiki meditation (I have done two levels), etc. (No, Mill’s method does not indicate Reiki as the cause. I had been doing Reiki meditation for more than a year before the pains began.)
Here, I am, indeed, reminded of a curious invention by Japanese. You know robotics. They all try to make robots having appearance of man. But since kinematics of the human form is so tough to get right (including walking, going upstairs, etc.), that the progress has been slow… But one guy (I suppose he was a prof. at a Jap. univ.) really thought of a completely new approch. Instead of a standalone robot that is programmed to do some simple task, why not “armor” a man with robot-like arms and legs? That is the idea. So, basically, you have “motorized” steel arms-like cover or sleeves which are worne by a *normal* human being. Not someone with physical disability or amputated arms, but a normal man. These steel arm-sleeves carry motion sensors with them. Whenever you naturally lift your arm, the sensors sense your motion and direct the powerful but lightweight motors attached on the sleeves, to lift the mechanical arm too. Ok. That looks complicated, but here’s the advantage. Suppose you want to lift a 500 kg steel casting lying on the factory floor. You can’t do it with your natural strength. But wear these robotic arms, and now, it is the arms and the electric motor which will take the load. You will, of course, also wear a mechanical torso like shield and a mechanical pair of legs, which, actually, will take the load and transmit it to the ground support. Thus, the design includes the complexity and the naturalness of the thought of an actual human being, and a mechanical robot’s capacity to take great loads like 500 kg. Obviously, such a robot will easily outdo every other robot on the combination of brains and brawns.
In a sense, such a robot is nothing but an amplifier of your mechanical power.
That, precisely, is what I have thought about these psychic attacks. Their mechanism is the following. They follow a few role-model like people to the hilt. Employ detectives and unearth as much information about their personal life, history, sextual history, class-mates, lovers, books, music, foods, political involvements, crime history, and whatnot. Everything. I guess some dedicated team must be required to do so… Then, they also employ psychics. And then, whenever someone—say your offshore development team member in California, Colorado, Cambridge UK, or from India—expresses something, they amplify it… They often have a smashing success of it. (Pun, sadly, is intended.)
Exactly the same, they tried to replicate at iMechanica. But, so far, they have had only success. A few things came in the way… (i) iMechanica is Harvard’s baby, and there is that Harvard’s famous sense of tradition, plus the historical accident that both Harvard and USA happen to have had a better tradition than what they have in the present, with the result that better things seem to prevail at Harvard (even today); (ii) The sense of professional courtesey and integrity, again traditional virtues in the area of science; (iii) Prof. Mr. Zhigang Suo’s own sense of better values that has saved a few virulent attempts to induce a more powerful streak of communalism to develop at iMechanica (read the honesty of his thoughts as expressed on issues like book burning, his experience of living under the more direct form of the Chinese communist dictatorship, etc.), plus, probably, his earlier Engg. Dean Venky’s sense of values too; (iv) The fact that the intended victim happened to be Ajit R. Jadhav. I won’t comment more on this, but enough to state that when the reason I got attracted to Ayn Rand was not The Fountainhead The Objectivist Epistemology, which I first read when I was still in my teens. Yes, today even I find it amazing that I had understood almost 70% of that book right on the first few readings, and certainly within the first year; 70% was all that I had read in the first year. BTW, coming from a Marathi medium school, I was so less exposed to the English writers and Western names that at least for the first month I did not at all know that Ayn was a woman’s name. If Ian (of Ian Fleming) was a man, Ayn must be so, it must be a different spelling—that’s what I had actually guessed. (I still remember how awestruck my friend had become once he heard my explanation. He later said that he had fallen silent not because I mistook the name but because I was raising questions that he had not thought of… Oh yes, did I tell you that I had *not* become an Objectivist for a full one year or so—the time when I was still evaluating it? Again, it’s a remarkably unlike any other Objectivist I have known of….)
Anyway, I have had enough of a post here…
More on the nature of the pains, how they are distinguishable from the other pains of more mundane nature, how they can nevertheless lead to real physical after-effects (to what extent, with what seriousness, and how do I determine such things), etc., some other time…
For the time being, I know that the psychic attacks originate in the USA. Even if the controllers could be some organization sympathetic to Talibanis. Or not. I don’t know it. But I know that USA’s official foreign policy has a direct bearing on the psychic attacks. I have distilled this last statement using Mill’s method of inductive generalization.
And, I mean it.
This is neither a mystery novel, nor a sci-fi fiction, nor an attempt at cheap publicity—which I, with my scientific engineering achievements, certainly don’t need—nor a political ploy against USA who, anyway, have repeatedly failed to appreciate me whether in giving me a green card or earlier giving me a PhD… None of that sort. It’s an objective fact.
(And yes, if anyone—Objectivists included—cannot handle it, go to hell: the pain is real when it happens.)
I will also mention the positives: The only places/times that I have found relief from pain (notably, in temples, and with some men of authentic goodwill having an unknown psychic “power” with them); how I have never been able to find anything that *always* works against these psychic attacks (e.g. how even visiting temples don’t always give me the needed relief in full—in other words, why the American psychic attackers must be more powerful than the powers left at the temples, and how all BJP and other religious idiots are plain wrong about it); how (and why) I do not associate religion with any of it… (This last is easy so let me state it right away: Religion, as such, is a theory, and, cognitively and morally, a very poor sort of theory at that, even an evil sort of theory. In any case, it is too poor a theory to approach any unknown—including your own “peace” or pain, your own life or death. This does not mean that saintly men—who themselves often take a very noble view of religion—cannot offer something of value to you… As I have said, I have not only often found my ongoing pain disappear, but, over a period of years, I have even learnt to “detect” a different kind of peace with different saintly individuals/places. Yes, it’s true. That “peace” too, is very individualistic a thing… Ayn Rand’s individualism works right in the realm of spirituality too, and why not? (This last, to those Objectivists who still are shell shocked).)
I will write, but don’t force anything on me… I honestly find science and engineering more interesting… (Or, rather, more interesting more number of times anyway).
I thought I would write about my unemployment. But, everything is inter-related. Including the spiritual fraudulence of a Vijay Bhatkar or others (some of who I listed above (unfortunately, even I don’t remember all of them all of the times)), and of Pune Brahmins (including the by-birth Marathas and low-castes working at Sakal and Indian Express and Times of India), and others’ lowliness to Americans’ exploitation of it to the better Americans’ losing fight against them… (I do not mean political fights—I mean at deeper levels, at *philosophic* levels)
Thanks for reading. And thanks to all my well-wishers over the years… It’s a frightening thought (esp. to me) but it’s entirely possible that I survived to tell the tales only because of the latter…
More, in a more systematic manner and with more details, later. (No, you don’t have to read my blogs.)
[This post, certainly, is to be streamlined/updated/clarified in a little bit greater detail later on. Originally published April 12, 2009, about 2:10 PM IST.]